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#JusJoJan 2019 – Jan. 21st -Echo

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Echo began as a tough topic for me. I have sat here for the last two hours trying to detemrine what to write. Finally, I have come upon something that think anyone who struggles with alcoholism, addiction, depression and being bipolar or any other type of mental illness, will certainly understand and appreciate.

Throughout my many years of dealing with my alcoholism and addiction issues I have heard the echos of the same refrain of concern and love from my sisters, my nieces, my grandmother when she was alive, most recently my father, my friends, my therapist and psychiatrist and of course my husband. The first echoing message is this – “We love you and we are worried that you are going continue to do harm to yourself to the point of death from alcohol or you are going to hurt someone else because of your alcohol use.”

The second echoing message is, “The only way this is going to change is if you want to make the change and do the work. The alcoholism and adiction, you can change, we know the mental health issues are lifelong issues that you can help with medication. The drinking and other use, you do have control over and you have to want to change or it will never happen.”

It is very important to note that I am back at that place where I am ready and willing to do the hard work to remain clean and sober,  just for today and that is the most important statement that I can and will echo every single day!!

THat’s what’s in “My Rattled Cage”, thanks for stopping by!!

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#JusJoJan 2019 Daily Prompt – Jan. 21st

#JusJoJan 2019 – Jan. 20th – Serendipity

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When I think of all the things in my life that have happened serendipitously, I am amazed because I have had such a strange but exciting life despite my battles with alcoholism and addiction, my battles with depression and being bipolar, thriving, not just surviving with HIV/AIDS for 22 years now.

I must honestly say that the most precious and important occurrence of serendipity has got to be when my husband of almost 18 years, Cruz called information to find my number in January 2001 because he just needed a friend to talk to. I have mentioned in previous posts that Cruz and I became friends in 1997 but had lost contact for a few years. When he called me in January 2001, I was by no means looking for love, a relationship or even any other type of encounters. I was happy just being me and working for SITEL Corporation as an Operations Team Manager.

But our whirlwind courtship was just amazing and call me a hopeless romantic, but when I received two dozen long stem red roses at work on Valentine’s Day 2001, I knew that Cruz was a keeper. When I moved in with him in October 2001, I brought two cats Mamas – who ran away not long after I moved in and Little Bit who passed in 2011 and Cruz had one dog Daisymae that had been with him 12 years already and she crossed the Rainbow Bridge in 2007. If you had told me then that we would see each-other through multiple health issues leading to the death of his father in June 2006, the murder of his niece in March 2011, the deaths of both my grandmothers in the space of a little over 3 months – which caused a really bad downward spiral for me, his mother’s open heart surgery in July 2015 and of course the arrival of Stitch, Buddy, our first Tippy, Sissy, Missy, Fluffy,, Minnie (Doodle), Patty and our second Tippy who over the years have crossed the Rainbow Bridge, and of course our current four legged babies Crissy, Little Bitty, Zailey Sadie and Stitchy – I would have told you that you were crazy because I never saw myself being loved and wanted by someone for the rest of my life.

One of the greatest things that ended up happening serendipitously was when Cruz bought our current house in 2006, he reminds me often that he bought this house for me. I have been truly blessed through all my madness and I am always happy to find some SERENDIPITY wherever it comes from. But today – I thank my God for all the gifts in my life and all of the most important people in my life – my sisters, their husbands, my nieces and their children, my father and stepmother, Cruz and of course his mother, and the many friends over the years especially my best friend Yoli who by the way is one of those pieces of serendipity in my life.
That’s what’s in “My Rattled Cage”, thanks for stopping by!!!

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#JusJoJan 2019 Daily Prompt – Jan. 20th

#SoCS & #JusJoJan 2019 – Jan. 19th – Television

Television is probably the one thing that I spend way too much time and energy on. With me being unemployed, I have way too much time on my hands. I really have several shows that I am obsessed with that I can watch reruns of nonstop. Below are my top ten shows that I watch the most.

  1. Don’t laugh but I am a LOYAL watcher of The Golden Girls. In fact they are what I fall asleep to most nights. I am such a fan that when The Hallmark Channel does their Countdown to Christmas and stops showing it, I have to search and find other stations that show it. 
  2. I Love Lucy – this is wahat I start my day with everymorning on the Hallmark Channel. This show is also taken off during the 2 1/2 month long Countdown to Christmas each year.
  3. A Million Little Things is a new show on ABC that is must watch Thursday television.
  4. Law and Order: Special Victims Unit – I have watched this series religiously since season one in 1999 and this is one of those series that I can watch the reruns over and over.
  5. Rupaul’s Drag Race and Rupaul’s Drag Race All-Stars the original started in 2009 and has grown to be such a cultural phenomenon, which is why the All-Stars branch was created.
  6. American Horror Story all seasons. The way that Ryan Murphy and Brad Falchuk are able to create such intriguing seasons and then last season Apocolypse combined Season 1: Murder House and Season 3: Coven. I am so hoping there will be a season 9.
  7. In the Heat of the Night which ran from 1988-1995 and is based on the novel and the 1967 movie that starred Sydney Poitier and Rod Steiger, that also won Best Picture at the 1968 Academy Awards. The show is currently in syndication on WGN America.
  8. Blue Bloods, which is still a show in production that airs on CBS. I did not become a fan of the show until I started watching after #5 In the Heat of the Night. I now watch the earlier seasons on WGN America and ION Television.
  9. Top Chef on Bravo. I have watched every season and right now the chefs are competing in Kentucky.
  10. Pretty much anything on the Food Network in the evenings, not so much the daytime shows.

That’s what’s in “My Rattled Cage”, thnak you for stopping by!!!

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#SoCS & #JusJoJan 2019 – Jan. 19th

#JusJoJan 2019 – Jan. 18th – Companionship

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In the slideshow above are Cruz and me, Crissy and Zailey, Little Bitty and our brother and sister combo Sadie and Stitchy!

The prompt for today, companionship is really a perfect prompt. Each of us have our own idea of what companionship looks and feels like. Sometimes when we begin our relationships with our husbands, wives, girlfriends or boyfriends they begin based on love, lust, friendship, friends with benefits or even a relationship out of convenience.

I know this because my relationship with my husband Cruz began as friends with benefits in the summer of 1997. We then lost contact with each other for a few years. In January 2001 he had gone through a horrible break up and was not handling it well. After speaking to his priest, who told him he needed to find a friend that he could talk to with no strings attached. So, what did he do, he called information and got my telephone number and called me? We picked up where we never even started.

So, we began dating and then on Valentine’s Day 2001 we made it official that we were a couple. In the beginning it was a relationship of my being spoiled and receiving anything I wanted. Then in September 2001, during my first bad bout with addiction to cocaine, I lost my apartment and had nowhere to go. On October 6th, 2001 Cruz reluctantly let me move in with him and neither one of us knew what the future would hold.

Since then we have gone through many ups and downs along with being the parents of 16 dogs and two cats over the years. We have had a whole lot of tears and a whole lot of laughter over the years. But mostly we have come to truly appreciate the one thing that keeps us sane and that is our COMPANIONSHIP with each other and of course our four-legged babies that have come and crossed over the Rainbow Bridge over the years. Often during some of my more manic episodic times my therapist, psychiatrist and even my doctor asks, “Do you still love each other?” I always say that yes, we do still love each other, and we do still make each other laugh! One thing is for certain, if we can continue to make each other laugh, we will make through anything!

That’s what’s in “My Rattled Cage” thanks for stopping by!!!

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#JusJoJan 2019 – Jan. 18th Prompt

One-Liner Wednesday & #JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 31st, 2018

This post is part of One-Liner Wednesday & #JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 31st, 2018.

I am so glad that I joined Just Jot January this year. I have been struggling posting to my blog because I had not felt inspired and had been dealing with a lot of personal physical and mental health issues. Thank you Linda G. Hill for being the HOSTESS WITH THE MOSTEST!!!

“When you don’t move the mountains I’m needing you to move, when you don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through, when you don’t give the answers as I cry out to you I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!”

Please enjoy one of my new favorite songs  Trust in You by Lauren Daigle!!

This is what is My Rattled Cage today!! Thank you for stopping by!

#JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 29th, 2018 – Fantastic

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This post is part of #JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 29th, 2018.

fantasticI think it is just fantastic that I am very blessed to be having very little pain in my shoulder since the surgery last Tuesday. I am sure that it will not be fantastic when the pain does appear during the next few months of physical therapy. My surgeon also did a fantastic job of closing my shoulder, I anticipate very little of a scar.

This is what is in My Rattled Cage today!!

#JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 28th, 2018 – Knight

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This post is part of #JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 28th, 2018.

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After any type of surgery, we all need that special person that takes care of us and nurses us back to health and full strength.  I happen to have the best KNIGHT in shining armor a man or woman could ever have in Cruz. In a little over two weeks we will celebrate 17 years together and he definitely deserves some medals for putting up with and loving me for all of these years!!

#JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 26th, 2018 – Address

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This post is part of #JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 26th, 2018.

On January 30, the current occupant of the White House will give his first actual state of the union address. I anticipate that this address will be nothing but his normal narcissistic, disrespectful and normal braggart self. My concern about what will come out of this is that he will sit and blame the Democrats for everything that has not happened in his first year.

I don’t understand how a Republican president that has a Republican House and Republican Senate cannot get any work done and blames the other side. When the government was shut down for three days recently, you had Democrats to vote for the bill to keep the government open so there had to be some Republicans who voted against the bill, so how in the world can you blame the Democrats if the Republicans who hold control of everything cannot get their crap together. The current occupant of the White House has no business being in office as he continues to alienate other countries, he continues to alienate our country by promoting his bigotry, racism and ethnocentrism.

I guarantee you that he is going to take all the credit for the stock market, which by the way we were on the road to recovery long before he thought of running for office and long before he got elected. He will refuse to talk about any type of gun control even though we continue to have the shootings whether they be at schools, in Las Vegas whether there at a black church, at a rally in Charlottesville, VA. No matter where the shootings are this president will never back gun control. 

DACA such an important piece of legislation that must be done. The individuals who are affected by DACA are in this country by no fault of their own they were brought here and have lived their entire lives here as citizens following the laws paying their way. It is only fair that these folks are kept in this country and allow a path to citizenship. The wall on the others on the southern tip of the country is still a very contentious issue, mainly because he insisted in the beginning that Mexico would pay for the wall. Mexico is not going to pay for all and now we are being told that we as taxpayers will have to foot the bill. Now I understand that we have folks this country who do commit crimes but not every individual that comes from Mexico is a drug dealer or is a murderer 95% of them that come into the United States do so because they want of better life.

I’m sure he will ask Republicans and Democrats to come together and work together to pass all kinds of legislation or he will continue to take his pen and sign executive orders which truly is not the right way for us to get things done tin his country. The problem with this country over the last 30 years, not just under this president, is that every piece of legislation that is written is not written clearly specifically for what it is supposed to be. Every piece of legislation is written and it has something from every single senator or congressman that they want for their district or their state just buried deep into a to a bill. And 99.99% of the time the House and Senate members do not take the time to read these bills which causes us more harm than good.

I would like to say that I will watch the entire state of the union address, but I cannot say that because I cannot stand this man in the White House. I think he is a disgrace, he is an embarrassment, he is dangerous and in my opinion he is unfit to be the leader of the free world.

This is what is in My Rattled Cage today.

#JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 25th, 2018 – Prediction

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This post is part of #JusJoJan Daily Prompt – January 25th, 2018

Prediction, everyone has a prediction about almost everything. In our election cycles we predicted who was going to be the winner and who was going to be the loser. Sometimes we get it right and sometimes we get it wrong. We predict what sports teams are going to win championships long before the championship series are played. We predict the Oscars, the SAG awards, the Grammys and even who’s going to win the reality shows.

When the current occupant of the White House took office I stated the following. I did not vote for the individual nor do I respect the individual but I do respect the office of the Presidency of the United States. With this statement I made three predictions, one he would be impeached, to he would have  us in World War III, and three – while I do not wish this on the country nor do I wish it on his family – he will be assassinated. Others have predicted he would just resign, that will never happen because he’s too narcissistic and it is all about him not about the country. I still hold to those predictions but pray that the World War III one does not happen.

Today I have a new prediction about me. It is day two since my surgery and I’m feeling no pain this morning.  Now if I just followed the directions the doctor gave me for postop, I think I will have a good rehabilitation healing process. I have been known after surgeries to bounce back very quickly because I do not take sitting around doing nothing and being nonproductive. I also do not want to cause any more stress or any more craziness for my husband Cruz during the rehabilitation.

I also need to be able to continue looking for a job the only way I can do that is to work on my rehabilitation and continue to put in applications and get called for interviews I will go I have my sling and will deal with it when I go and interview. So, I hope everyone has a great day and that all of your own predictions especially the good ones come true.

This is what is in My Rattled Cage today!!!