Sorry for the long post about this song!
So, I have been looking for a new blog activity to participate in and I have found it. Music Monday, I happened upon it happenstance by way of Bee Halton of The Bee Writes whom I follow and I am grateful that she follows my blog as well.
My Music Monday song is one that is extremely special to me. The first time I heard Mercy Me’s “I Can Only Imagine” was sometime in April 1999 while I was working at SITEL Corporation. This is one of those songs, that it does not matter how many times you hear it – it still can move you.
The premise of this song in theory is, how will one act when they die and arrive in Heaven and meet Jesus Christ and God. I am Catholic Christian who does believe that through my madness, I will go to Heaven and meet Christ.
But for me this song is so much more. Not only will I not know how will act when I Jesus Christ, but I don’t know how I will react when I am reunited with my mother who passed on Sunday May 10, 1998 which just happened to be Mother’s Day in the U.S. How will it be when I am reunited with my older brother who passed in 1967 when I was only 6 months old and so I don’t remember him. What about my Grandma Ruby who passed at the age of 99 on November 2, 2012 whom I loved so dearly.
The one that I most relate with now in this song is Grandma Wanda who passed at the age of 89 six years ago today February 11, 2013. You see Grandma Wanda and I, for at least 10 years prior to her death, had a standing telephone call coffee date at 7:30AM daily. Even after all this time, I so want to pick up the phone every morning and have coffee with her. Grandma Wanda truly was my biggest fan, besides my sisters and my husband. She accepted me for all my flaws, and she loved Cruz like you wouldn’t believe. It was not long after death that I went through one of worst rock bottom times in my life – but also one of the longest amounts of time afterwards of being clean and sober.
It is because of her spirit and others that I am still a work in progress. The weirdest thing and coolest happened today as I was choosing my first song for my first Music Monday post. As I began the post I happened to look down at the time on my computer. It was 11:55AM CST which was the exact time that I had called Barton County Hospital in Lamar, Missouri and learned that Grandma Wanda had just passed a few moments earlier. At that exact time today, I felt Grandma Wanda’s spirit come down and hug me, hug me hard to where I felt it from the tip of my head to the tips of my toes. So, I know she is watching me!!!