Oh thank you for this post Vanessa!! I had 2 1/2 years of being clean and sober until I turned 50 on September 14, 2016. I sabotaged myself and went to all of my old haunts and did all of the old things I used to do. I am dually addicted to alcohol and cocaine. I am blessed to say that I have 38 days of being clean and sober and yes, I do know NOW that I will never be able to have just one drink or anything else!! I loved this post today because it reminds me so much of me and my husband of 17 years!! Just for today I will REMAIN CLEAN and SOBER!!
Some days, I totally blow it! I try my best to be a good mom, daughter, sibling and friend. I try to be a good wife to my husband, while also giving him his space. I try to be the one who sets a good example by practicing the principles of recovery in all of my affairs, but I am not always successful. Progress, not perfection. I get it. But seriously, you guys should hear some of the crazy things that go through my head sometimes. I know we all have crazy thoughts from time to time, and I am certainly not unique, but sometimes my thoughts make me feel embarrassed for even thinking them!
You will have to bear with me as I have been sick for about 2 months straight, I haven’t been getting nearly enough sleep and I have completely neglected any sort of physical exercise or maintained anything remotely…
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